She was quiet…
But not blind….
She herself was everything. Everything she needed, everything she wanted, everything she hated and everything she desired for.
She was not perfect but happy in her own self, satisfied in her own life and grateful for everything she possessed. Life was not always easy for her but she was courageous enough to shape things as she wanted. She was not of this world and she was not of any other world either. She was a whole world in herself. A world where nobody could fit in and a world where only she could wander with her loneliness.
“Tell a lie again” she said…
“I love you” he whispered..
“She was not like other girls. She never was and she never would be” he whispered. She was not beautiful, not pretty but there was something in her which always made him go weaker in his knees. She had that otherworldliness he used to write poems about. She was the one with deep scars on forehaead and a beautiful and deeper smile on her lips. She used to have a big heart where anybody could come in to be a part of her happiness. But those very parts ripped away her happiness slowly and made her heart a cold narrow place where nobody could fit in.
She made a wall so high before her heart that it was impossible to climb it. He always wanted to break that wall but feared if he does the same unknowingly. And that fear made him love her without any expectation to get that love back from her. He was in love with her and she was still learning to love herself…..❤
I see hopeless men on the streets,
bottles in their eyes,
words on their tongues
twisted in bitterness.
What will I become
when I’ve left university’s arms
and the teet
Will that warmth and prospect
like a disturbed smoke haze?
Will I be trundling ’round
in trainers, brown
with a denim heart?
These hopeless men
are poets of few words
and their hands
seek rough surfaces
in search of soft patches.
All the while,
I daren’t look into my own hopelessness:
there might be a small man in there
clapping in the cold
ready to meet my eyes…….
Try thinking about having no home on earth once. Think about living alone when you need your family the most. Think about spending your whole day crying and remembering your good old days and comparing them to nothingness of present.
You can imagine it but can’t feel it. When you are old you see the people whom you spent your childhood and adulthood with are leaving this world one by one. You find yourself growing weaker day by day. You see your children whom you devoted your whole life for have left you to a place where you know nobody. You still want to live with them, to forgive them and love them like anything for that older people always have a big and soft heart.
But is it this big heart that makes your heart shrink so small that you can’t even take care of them when they need you the most? All they want is little attention and affection in return of their great devotions and sacrifices they made to reach you where you are now.
So love them and take care of them so that you won’t ever have to regret for it later. What goes is what comes around.
So if there is no home for them now, how can you be so sure about having a secure and safe old age for yourself??????
There will be days when you’ll feel bad about yourself for being who you are, you’ll want yourself to be like somebody else or to possess something which you don’t really own, you’ll doubt your existence and your future, you’ll want yourself to get rid of your own self and you’ll cry hard for being helpless about any of these things.
But trust me everyone is unique and so are you. Why to compare yourself to somebody else and why to try to be like them when you are a real version and copies are always useless. Why not to love yourself as you are and why not to look at future with optimistic eyes, why not to be happy with the things you possess and to work hard in direction to improve yourself, why not to be proud of yourself and why not to spend your life happily instead of being sad and pessimist??
The answer is yes you should do all these things to get the best version of yourself whom you can be proud of. So just get up with deep love and respect for yourself and immense pleasure and optimism for future. World awaits to get a person like you………